Humbled.

 

Today, I prayed something I hadn’t asked God for in a while. “Humble me Lord in your presence and not in the sight of man.” 

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Today was humbling.

People overlooked my products. 

They weren’t as social. 

I wasn’t as friendly. 

Everyone else was extremely successful and I wasn’t.

Honestly it hurt my ego a bit.

I breathed. 

I

Was B7AF4419-A936-42DE-87FE-F2A4B17C1372 2 b there. 

I sold 866B2011-F930-440B-BB45-A0BA50A9EB49 to a good home. I was content.

I started remembering how I was grateful and for whom I was  grateful for. I saw a lot of familiar faces. I reconnected with old friends. I didn’t feel like I had made enough money. I did; enough to pay some bills and buy a few Christmas presents. God always provides because He is good. I am a sinner but He is good and just and holy. I am not. He is and I’m grateful he is. Someone has to be.

Humbling. 

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Some days just aren’t perfect.

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No matter how great the things you are selling or producing or  creating or making are, they just don’t sell.

I’m grateful for so many things this season. 

My life looks far from glamorous on the outside yet I have peace. I have little debt; I am in good health. I do not have a marriage with a man that I dislike. I am in a good place, mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually. 

I had a realization this week while preparing for the event, how grateful I am, that I’m not tied down to it. I love it but my livelihood is not dependent on this particular endeavor. A business is a sacrifice. When I had this realization, it made me cry. Cry because despite how much I feel that God has withheld from me- He hasn’t. He really hasn’t.  He isn’t withholding from you either. I love you. Goodnight. 

Psalm 84:11

“For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor. No good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly.”

 

 

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